Moving On

Photo Credit: SecretsofaGoodGirl

How a person treats you is a reflection of them, not youthings you tell yourself when going through the aftermaths of a breakup.

Why do they call it moving on? Like it’s a feel-good thing.

Moving on doesn’t feel good. It hurts.

It’s like deciding to go on a diet. Or quitting soda drinks cold turkey.

It sucks at first, and the only bright spot is the logic part of your brain telling you you’re doing the right thing. In time, that voice will get louder. And easier to believe.

And one day, you would have moved on.

But not today. Today, you’re still moving on.

And it feels awful.

It is admitting you made a mistake, a poor decision. It’s admitting you lived with this mistake either oblivious or too stubborn to admit it.

You should have known. The signs were there.

When her words didn’t change but her actions did. You should have known.

She kept saying I love you but she stopped calling. You should have known.

She stopped caring. And then she stopped talking. You should have known.

Finally, you pull the plug, and the dejection overwhelms you.

This you knew. Anticipated.

It didn’t stop you feeling like your heart had been run over by a steam train.

I let you in where no one has been before. You went in and awakened places in me that I never thought I had, then left me when I’d come to depend on youthoughts that keep you crying into your sheets at night.

So yes, moving on sucks. But staying put would suck even more.

So dont.

Photo Credit: SecretsofaGoodGirl

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11 thoughts on “Moving On

  1. I’m tempted to ask…you? Here, have a big hug.

  2. Le Sigh! You will be alright. Don’t miss the beauties as you move on.

  3. She doesn’t deserve him…

  4. Moving on does suck, but here is one advise from a fool. Do not get sucked into lets just be friends like i did, it will just delay the moving on and before you know it you are back in heartbreak hotel again.

    So from a fool:
    1) Do not take her out for drinks as friends (ever)
    2) Try not to rekindle the love
    3) Do not do (2) because you think she is the one

    The idea of “The One” keeps you from finding/falling in love with the good enough (paraphrasing Alain De Button)

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